Posted by Larry Weston on April 23, 1999 at 13:38:26:
In Reply to: Feeling low posted by Jake on April 22, 1999 at 17:07:36:
......your on the road to a good recovery. Too bad you wised up now instead of 10 years ago, but you know what Jake? You'll only end up being a better person, and a better mate for someone because of it all. I'd say do yourself a favor and don't jump into anything serious for awhile. Oh sure, get out and have fun, just watch your emotions. Your a little vulnerable right now, a possible recipe for disaster. What happened to the woman you work with? Anything? Larry
: Well, my ex-to-be called this AM to tell me she had been to the doctor, seems a chronic health problem that
: had been under control for some time has cropped back up. On top of that, my daughter's asthma has been really
: bad lately. She was visiting with me last night, and didn't want to go home, said she didn't like it there with me
: gone. I told her I would be back home in a couple of weeks, and she reminded me that when I'm back, mom will
: be gone. I think she was just really tired and not feeling well. She ended up spending the night with me and
: my folks and worrying that she hurt her mom's feelings by not wanting to go home.
: I'm feeling really low and guilty. Taking care of my wife and kids and working has been my whole life for so long, and
: work really sucks right now. I feel like I should be back home taking care of them, but I know I can't go back. I stayed
: with my wife for years out of nothing more than guilt and pity for her, and not being able to stand the thought of either
: not being with my daughter, or having to take her away from her mother.
: I'm sure my wife's sharing the news with me about her doctor visit is at least in part to make me feel guilty, she's always
: known how to do that really well, and knows it works on me.
: After years of misery, the end is in sight. The legal arrangements are moving along as well as I could have hoped for, and
: I should soon have the life I've dreamed of for my daughter and myself. So why do I feel like shit?